DXO

I wonder if any of you all had been to DXO recently. It's like totally different from the last time I went there a few years back, back when there's still a ladies night, we still had to pay cover charge, and there were actually a queue and people clubbing. It's no longer a club, more like a pub or a water hose actually. $1 cover charge and drinks are like $4 each. Gosh.. and the crowd there, they actually can dance to the manila live band. Hahaha Fel and I had a pretty good laugh but it got awkward soon looking at how the people were enjoying themselves.

Thankfully Brenda and SB couldn't make it. They would've been so disappointed because if it's clubbing you're looking for DXO is really not the place, not anymore anyway.

I think last night was okay, didn't really overdrink although still sufficiently drunk haha. Got all high and tipsy but not to the extent of hangover and vomit. $4 a shot, who can resist? Almost died on the way back though, had to hold back my pee on the NR for so long.

Woke up at 7+ today, still feeling a little bad over what happened. The thing about crossing boundaries is that we set our own boundaries and it's different for everyone. I'd like to think I didn't cross mine, but in fact I know I did that's why I'm feeling pretty bad and couldn't really sleep last night. I really wish I'm someone else, someone who can just go ahead and do and fuck care about anything else.

But here I am, after sobering up I'm still me sitting here and nothing has changed or improved. Did it made things worse? I guess a little but I'll have to find out.

And next Friday is coming a little too soon.

The customary emo lyrics that I'm relating to is coming up.

Like A Knife

I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both good for detected pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life(stay with me, or watch me bleed)
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife(i need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life