Relac-jack.

Yet another relac-jack week passed me by. Nothing happened, which in a way is good too. No high points, no low points, no nothing.

Having said that, I think one of the most important things we can learn from serving NS is how to LLST. They should really include it as a core value or something. Loyalty to country, leadership, yada yada, LLST! People say act blur live longer, I think LLST will live longer too. I'm starting to lose patience with people who just can't learn how to LLST even though they have served much longer than me and are gonna ORD-ing this year. Hello, this is the SAF, if you're gonna sit down and complain about every single thing that is not up to your 'civilian' standard or liking, you might as well just migrate elsewhere and give up your citizenship.

My BMT mate once told me, "Cannot everything also suck thumb one." False. Everything also can suck thumb, because if you're gonna go against the grain you'll always end up at the losing end. That's definitely true for NS, and I think I've really honed my suck thumb skills there quite well now that I'm applying it to other parts of my life as well. Maybe that's why I'm not having any high or low points recently, because everything is just flat on the ground for me. Don't hope, don't complain, don't moan, I can't change anything even if I want to so just LLST. I don't know how true or correct this is for everyone, but at least for me it seems to be working out.

Sure, I might never be truly happy if I carry on with this mentality, but at least I know it's much more effortless to avoid being unhappy now. And I'm really, really lazy to try anything else. I've turned my back on my 'numb' tattoo for quite awhile now, it's time to lead my life the way that is made for people like me. It's all I want, and probably all I deserve as well.