What's wrong.

My 3-month stint in Canon is coming to an end soon. In fact next Monday onwards I'll be counting down to 9 more working days. I'll do a thorough review by then, bitching about my colleagues one by one because damn, aren't they dissable. Ok maybe not all, maybe only a certain T in particular. That's for another time.

I've been feeling quite irritable, edgy, negative, fucked up, angry, I don't know what you call it recently. And it's not something that I can talk about and it'll go away cause I don't even know what's causing it. Man Utd's poor start to the season? My impending enlistment? My eternal struggle to lose 5 more kgs? The angry lyrics of the hip hop tracks in my ipod?

Question to haters, how would you feel if you get hated on by people you care about? I know it's pretty contradicting cause you wouldn't care about people you hate on but apparently this is what's going on, at least IMO. Do you really care about me? Do you see something wrong in what I'm doing and you're trying to correct me? Why don't I feel that what you're saying or doing is for my good? Why do I feel that you're just hating on me for hating's sake. Like every thing I do is wrong or not good enough and you'll always have a fucking negative opinion. Do you see me behaving this way to people I care about?

This is really bothering me. Great job bringing me down and letting me know what a low-life I am. Thanks for it. Now I'm gonna have to start pulling myself out from this inferiority complex again.

Fuck this cycle really.