SLACK

I've been slacking for too long, too damn fucking long.

Academically, I haven't been studying anywhere near the level I was just a few months back when my exam was just around the corner. I would spend everynight after last parade in camp to study till 12am, I would stay at home on weekends to study, it was just mug mug and mug. Right now I couldn't keep my hands off my PSP whenever I reach my bunk, much less do anything else like picking up my textbooks. Weekends at home ain't anywhere better, I can't stop downloading shows or games to put into my PSP to entertain myself when I book in. And I said I wanted to take 2 papers this time round. Am I dreaming or what?

Physical-wise, I cannot stop my weight from spiralling out of control. I'm weighing 79-ish kg now, and I'm still feeling hungry. I'm guessing that when I'm done satisfying my hunger I'll probably weigh some 82-83kg from all the food I'm gonna stuff myself with. That's a whole 10+ kg compared with my poly days and before I enlisted. I haven't been running much at all since the Stan Chart Marathon but hey, you can forgive me for thinking that I've ran all my life's worth of mileage after 42km. Every weekend I'll set my alarm to 830am thinking that I can give a call to my little star to wake her up for work and then go jogging myself. End up I'll go back to sleep after calling her and wake up around 1130 just in time for brunch.

I can't keep living this way. IPPT on Tuesday and I'm really pretty sure I'm gonna fail it. Fuck SBJ. Remedial training here I come then.

I gotta go try study abit now. Or maybe I should watch 1 more episode of True Blood. Hmmm..